hello. sorry this one is messy. ive been correcting my entries with proper spelling and punctuation so that theyre easier to read. i might do that to this one as well (tbh probably will) but id like to just get my thoughts out without having to worry about my sentence structures. hmmmmm where to start ... yesterday at work me and sam exchanged numbers! she said we can go hang out and paint somewhere :) im super excited about that. we might go to "color me mine" this week. in case you dont know what it is, its a store where you can purchase pottery and paint them using glaze then pick them up on a different day when theyre out of the kiln. i made my own curry yesterday as well! it was butter paneer. my absolute favorite. well, current favorite at least. im kind of weird with food. i go through phases where i will eat a bunch of one specific meal over and over again until it grosses me out and i move onto the next. so CURRENTLY my favorite food is butter/tikka masala paneer. it was good! i was quite pleased with myself. today i finally finished reading umineko. holy shit. what a masterpiece. i find myself heavily relating to shannon. if youre familiar with umineko, im sure you can understand if you saw my other entries. although that being said, my favorite character is kanon ever since the very start. evan and gisele seem to have stopped playing together. he plays with basically only meko and or himself. it seems that gisele is starting to realize what i said about evan was the truth. one thing about me is i am very much for the truth of every situation. i have a sense of "justice autism" according to others. theres no need for me to lie in this world. of course there are times where i do in fact lie, such as when my dad asks me if my room is clean. just tiny things of that nature. im hoping that gisele told the other girls what i said as well. when she originally talked to me it seemed as though she did but i could just be looking too deep into it. but seeing as meko is the only person evan will play with anymore, my guess might not be that far off. ive felt as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. my job is done. i did the right thing and the universe will handle the rest. the thought of the natural flow of karma brings peace to my soul. things will work themselves out. im feeling a burst of inspiration today. im currently drawing out some characters i made up. "ocs" if you will. they kind of represent different personalities i feel like i switch in an out of. its freeing to just let your imagination take control of you.
theres lots of pleasures in this world, i hope we all find our own "golden land" in time!! ^_^
